Well lets see facing losing your home the one you put everything you had into is depressing to say the least. At this point I feel sad, angry, pissed and its brought up some resentment towards CJ (cheating jerk).. I think of all of the money spent and hours working towards fixing up the place to have it all come down to worrying if I am going to end up owing a huge amount of money with nothing at all left.. All I can do is share and hope that some poor girl doesn't end up in the same situation as I have.
Love to me, well not so sure anymore. Don't get me wrong I love my friends and my family but my views about love and commitment were pretty damaged. Let me try to sum it up, girl meets guy, they fall into?? well you think its love.. girl moves to be with guy (leaving all of her friends and support, big mistake..), they then get engaged and with the wedding not too far off decide to buy a house. We toil, fix up the house, I spend a small fortune at Home Depot.. Then as if in the bad movies where you walk in on your fiance with someone else, I find out CJ was having a secret relationship with some other girl and even planned, and had a romantic tryst with said girl mere months before the wedding. Don't worry.. they documented every little torrid detail via email, don't you just love cyber space, where CJ left email open for me to see on my computer (insert salt in the wound here). Swearing, tears and other typical things you do when you find out things of this sort took place and it came down to me moving out of "our" house. Two years later CJ is married, offspring on the way and the damn real estate market hasn't turned around one bit. So here comes the short sale (we hope), possible foreclosure..
So basically that is the quick version of how I got here.. Where is here.. Well renting a room, losing my home, and single.. oh joy... Please pass the martini.... Vodka, dirty..
Aloha
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